time to begin...again.

it's monday morning. i am in danger of being late. i'm always in danger of being late, though...so, what's new? at least today i have a good reason. i'm up doing family reunion stuff.

monday. the beginning of the week. we take mondays for granted. some people even loathe mondays. i used to. but, that's because i despised what i was doing monday - friday. that's no longer the case, so, i actually look forward to mondays...and the new beginning that they provide.

a new beginning is what i need. another one, that is.

my labwork came back last week. ungood. truly. i am not taking care of my body appropriately and that must change. my spring/summer showed me that i am capable of being BETTER. eating better. exercising better. being mobile better. i just need to begin. again. so, today...on monday...i shall.

thanking God for granting the time...to begin...again.

Top 5 Dumb Things Niggaz Think . . .

[originally posted 5/6/06 on my other blog]

Dropping a few random thotz...some situations that I've observed recently...some mine, some not...doesn't really matter...(and, don't shoot me for using the 'n' word...I'm taking poetic license, darnit!) 

So...lemme know your thotz...or not...doesn't really matter 2 me since this is MY WORLD and...yep, you got it....

Latah...

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Top 5 Dumb Things Niggaz Think (That They Shouldn't):

#5     that because you show them respect, as a person and a man, when you're with them, that they're the only one you're showing respect to.   

#4     that because don't choose to waste your time dating lotz of dudes (aimlessly), you're tryna date him exclusively.

#3     that because you want to talk to them/spend time with them, your world will stop spinning if it doesn't happen.

#2     that because you're nice, smile a lot and laugh at their jokes, you're in love. 

#1      and...the number one dumbazz thing niggaz think...that because they give you some good dick, you're gonna be down for the okeydoke.<> GreenMile wrote the following in my Comment section and refuses to post it on his own blog, like I suggested...so here it is...the 'counters'...

QUOTE:

hmmm interesting...
5 dumb things BROADS thing (that they shouldnt)
5. Just cuzz you are attractive/nice body dudes should bend over backwards for you
4. just cuzz we respect you and are nice to you we want to holla
3. Just cuzz we talk every day or spend constant time that you are the ONLY one
2. Every dude is out to run some type of game on you
1. that sex is a way to keep a guy around
 had to be the devils advocate

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FRIENDS...

[originally posted 8.29.06 on my other blog]
Xanga...watz up witcha? I know itz been an insane amount of time since last I posted. The funny thing is...I don't even have a good reason for not doing so. My spirit jez wasn't moving me to do so, I guess. At any rate, I had a thought that I'd like to share.

I'm sick of the word 'FRIEND'.

There I said it.

I almost feel a little better now. Almost but not quite.

This word is the most OVERWORKED word in the English language. Yeah...yeah, it is...cuz I said so.

The following are just a few reasons why I hate the word:
1. It carries multiple meanings & connotations which rarely will be interpreted the same way by any 2 people.
2. It is used incorrectly & 'loosely' by people who have no other word to describe their human interactions.
3. In the dating arena it has become a 'catch-all' term describing any variety of engagement w/the opposite sex. (Yep, from "...girl, you know you like a play cuzin..." to "...girl, you need to quit playin' and gimme some, cuz I'm..."! Right.)
4. Its overuse in our society causes people to be misled, feel betrayed, misunderstood, etc. because people have expectations of their FRIENDS. So, when those expectations are left unfulfilled, folks often do what? *LOSE* FRIENDSHIP. (Now, I wanna know how you lose something like a friendship? I mean, it's not a pair of socks...so WTH???!!!)
5. The fifth, and singlemost reason I hate this word is because eeeeeeevvvvrrrybody wants one -- but, they don't always wanna be one.

I don't mean to come back to the Xanga family sounding bitter. But then again...do I really care how I sound? Hmmnn...not so much.

To those folks that I call Friend, know that I love you with all that I am...and, then some -- cuz sometimes that might not be enough...

Latah...

Going Back...

so. it seems that at some point in all ended relationships, people try to go back. and, you can't. ever. go back.

trust me, i've tried!

it usually happens when i feel bad for too dismissive of the opposite sex. like, in dating situations. something will be said or done and i'm suddenly like, "oh. no. this isn't a good look."  friends of mine have Like, within an unusually short period of time I can discern whether or not someone is going to get on my everlasting nervE. And, while I may continue the dialogue for a period of time...when it ends -- and, it does end -- it usually for the very same reason that I identified in the beginning.

A New Journey?

So...I firmly believe in trying new things. Sometimes. If the risk is not too great. LOL!

Yesterday, I 'twisted' my hair for the first time. I'm not sure how I feel about it. I don't love it. I don't hate it. Today, I will twist it out and see what that looks like. It's funny how HAIR is such a THING. But, more on that another day. 

Take a look... 

http://picasaweb.google.com/str8lovanochasa/MyHair?authkey=Gv1sRgCMSpldXVzZeaJg&feat=directlink

Summer 2009...

...seems to have been plagued by death.

and, today...patrick swayze. but, it's not summer anymore.

i don't question God. it hurts though. and, i cried.

Everyone Can't be in your front row...

Everyone Can't be in your front row...

Author: Unknown

Life is a theater so invite your audiences carefully. Not everyone is healthy enough to have a FRONT ROW seat in our lives.

There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance.

It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go, or at least minimize your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships, friendships, fellowships and family!

Everyone Can't be in Your FRONT ROW.

Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention to: Which ones lift and which ones lean?

Which ones encourage and which ones discourage?

Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are just going downhill?

When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse?

Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know and appreciate you and the gift that lies within you?

Everyone Can't be in Your FRONT ROW.

The more you seek quality, the more you seek things honorable, the more you seek growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the FRONT ROW and who should be moved to the balcony of your life.

Everyone Can't be in Your FRONT ROW.

You cannot change the people around you...but you can change the people you are around!

Choose wisely the people who sit in the FRONT ROW of your life.

Remember that FRONT ROW seats are for special and deserving people and those who sit in your FRONT ROW should be chosen carefully.

Everyone Can't be in Your FRONT ROW.