hump day...

ok.
so, yesterday was day 8 of unemployment and it was quite honestly? the first not-so-good day.

but, today...was GREAT! i was uber productive in getting my home-office organized and to top it all off, allowed that guy to take me to dinner. which was just ''okay'', because soul-food restaurants, like hairdressers, get too comfortable and slack off with the quality of the food...but, more on that later. we had a ball. and, i'm just getting in. yeah...1:21 a.m. on a school night! how lovely is that? no judgements please...the key is that i got in...*wink, wink*.

tonight was the first night on this second tour of duty that i allowed myself to just be in the moment. i did not feel the internal pressure to do anything but eat dinner and enjoy the company i was in. while it probably looked no different, it felt different. but, isn't that the theme of the day? i swear...everything about him, this...is different. and, i like it. some of it terrifies me, but in general, i like it. there are some subtle changes...which lead me to believe the person that told me that the more open i am, the more open he will be. interesting.

there's so much i could say...but, i will simply say "Thanks" to my bestie, Jesus...He knows what He did and maybe one day I'll tell yall!

*off to dreamland...still enjoying the moment*