random ish...

so much has happened in the last few years. so much and yet...nothing. lol...how can that be? i don't get that. but, that's how i feel. i'on know xanga...you might get an update, and ya' might not...cuz right about now? it's the randomness that is spillllllllllllling forth...
it was one week ago today that i "lost" my job. "  " because i swear i gained something. i mean...they suck and i really am not mad about being included in the group that got 'walked out'. i do somehow wish i could meet a few folks in a dark alley -- and watch them get dey azzes beat -- but...by and large (where did that saying come from?), i am very-much-okay with the change. obviously, it's nice to have a plan b in effect and not be blind-sided...BUT...my stress level decreased the very same day that i was told. and, i've not shed one tear over it. eff em.
he's funny. he's cute. i like him. i hate him. dammit. xanga...the story behind this one is unbelievable.  why i can't have simple, fairy-tale type ish kills me. one problem is that i think too much. that's what the people say. well...i say eff the people. lmao. seriously, though...some days i think i must be a dayum fool to continue down this ambiguous path...but, isn't that who i am? miss ambiguity? isn't it my picture that's displayed next to this A-word in the dictionary? argh.
it's finally warm in michigan. yay! i swear i was going to cry if the wind hadn't changed soon! another summer and i still am not at my janetjacksonfightingweight. ugh. hated it.
i hate when people always have a similar situation. always. you can be describing one of the most unique, special to you type experiences and THEY will have one that is the same exact thing...or more exciting. wtf? i have a friend that does that. makes me crazy.
i have more...but, my eyelids don't want me to share it all right now.
i'll holllllllllla...