A Thursday Thought..

Do you measure the level of attraction that someone has to you by the amount of physical contact they attempt to have with you? (i.e., Ladies, if a dude doesn't try to kiss/hug/touch you in some manner, do you think he's less attracted/interested? And, Fellahs, if a girl doesn't accept your advances freely, do you think she's uninterested in you? Obviously, these two can be flipped -- since females are the agressor many times these days...)

Have you ever found yourself in a dating situation where "everything was everything'', but the amount of physical contact was somehow different (or less) that what you were accustomed to? If so, what did you do? Was it a deal-breaker? Did you allow your friends to weigh-in on the matter?

Inquiring minds want to know...lemme me hear from you...

hump day...

ok.
so, yesterday was day 8 of unemployment and it was quite honestly? the first not-so-good day.

but, today...was GREAT! i was uber productive in getting my home-office organized and to top it all off, allowed that guy to take me to dinner. which was just ''okay'', because soul-food restaurants, like hairdressers, get too comfortable and slack off with the quality of the food...but, more on that later. we had a ball. and, i'm just getting in. yeah...1:21 a.m. on a school night! how lovely is that? no judgements please...the key is that i got in...*wink, wink*.

tonight was the first night on this second tour of duty that i allowed myself to just be in the moment. i did not feel the internal pressure to do anything but eat dinner and enjoy the company i was in. while it probably looked no different, it felt different. but, isn't that the theme of the day? i swear...everything about him, this...is different. and, i like it. some of it terrifies me, but in general, i like it. there are some subtle changes...which lead me to believe the person that told me that the more open i am, the more open he will be. interesting.

there's so much i could say...but, i will simply say "Thanks" to my bestie, Jesus...He knows what He did and maybe one day I'll tell yall!

*off to dreamland...still enjoying the moment*

random ish...

so much has happened in the last few years. so much and yet...nothing. lol...how can that be? i don't get that. but, that's how i feel. i'on know xanga...you might get an update, and ya' might not...cuz right about now? it's the randomness that is spillllllllllllling forth...
it was one week ago today that i "lost" my job. "  " because i swear i gained something. i mean...they suck and i really am not mad about being included in the group that got 'walked out'. i do somehow wish i could meet a few folks in a dark alley -- and watch them get dey azzes beat -- but...by and large (where did that saying come from?), i am very-much-okay with the change. obviously, it's nice to have a plan b in effect and not be blind-sided...BUT...my stress level decreased the very same day that i was told. and, i've not shed one tear over it. eff em.
he's funny. he's cute. i like him. i hate him. dammit. xanga...the story behind this one is unbelievable.  why i can't have simple, fairy-tale type ish kills me. one problem is that i think too much. that's what the people say. well...i say eff the people. lmao. seriously, though...some days i think i must be a dayum fool to continue down this ambiguous path...but, isn't that who i am? miss ambiguity? isn't it my picture that's displayed next to this A-word in the dictionary? argh.
it's finally warm in michigan. yay! i swear i was going to cry if the wind hadn't changed soon! another summer and i still am not at my janetjacksonfightingweight. ugh. hated it.
i hate when people always have a similar situation. always. you can be describing one of the most unique, special to you type experiences and THEY will have one that is the same exact thing...or more exciting. wtf? i have a friend that does that. makes me crazy.
i have more...but, my eyelids don't want me to share it all right now.
i'll holllllllllla...